We need the darkness in our lives.

We need the darkness in our lives.

We are born into darkness until we find the light.

And, no it doesn't mean that you do bad things. People associate bad with darkness. It's just a place within us all. When you are shone the light, everything changes within you. You see the world in a different way. Hence the words:

“I once was lost, but now I am found, was blind, but now I see."

My freedom came to me in January of 2000. I used to walk literally in the darkness to work 5 miles away 5 days a week sometimes 6 or 7 days. I used to not want to live. I was very depressed, but, I made it to work all those years. I smiled through it all not one person knew my pain. I carried it. Until the night that Ms. Kimmie showed and a light shone down upon her. I was curious at to what I was seeing so I walked over to her station. I did not say but. "Who are you?" and she said to me as she smiled "He is listening to you?"

Mesmerized at what she said, I walked over to my station. My spirit knew the spirit she spoke of.....as I connected within me I felt a glorious feeling of grandeur and my life has not been the same since....meaning I LIVE.

Warrior Of Love

Sharing something deep to a heart that feels what I'm saying is a joy for me. My moments of heartbreak to the incredulous healing of being shattered. I heard, no, no...I literally felt my heart break into pieces. I cried out to the Unseen to take this pain away. I remember waking up from a deep sleep hours later to a Voice that was beckoning me "Daughter"..."Daughter"...the third "Daughter" I came to. The Voice said to me trust the Unseen. Walk in love. I was healed. The excruciating pain I could not bare was gone. This journey has been a quest, not an easy one. I followed. I obeyed. I trusted, Through it all, I remain faithful to the Unseen...

I live with the love that now fills me.

ONELOVE

Synchronicties

       Synchronicities

Here I am. Yep. Here I am.

It just seemed like yesterday.

Now, here we are today.

Here We are. Here We are.  

Do you remember yesterday?

It is the past. Today, we are. 

In sync. We are One. 

We are One. A whole being.

In one. Now, we live. 

2022.11.01

MJF_Onelove

 

In The Dark...

 

My heart aches deeply of a pain that can not be expressed enough with words, or shown with expressions because it's far to hurtful to share. Somehow this deep pain is what's kept me living. This ache gives me the will to move forward. Moving forward is how I've survived even when I didn't want to. There were many nights I've cried myself to sleep. I've often wandered aimlessly on on dark nights. I've even walked 5 miles one direction in the middle of the night to work, watching the phases of the moon for years. I would bellow into the lonely, quiet nights with the sound of my  own voice to keep me company. The darkness was my light. It was there I knew I could disappear and no one could find me because not one person dared to look. I would disappear on breaks and lunch all the years I worked the grave yard shifts and I would write. I began to write. Writing was my solace for the hell I was living in for so many years. Writing is how I would release the hurt inside without a soul to talk to because of the embarrassment I felt. So, I would write stories and poems of my so-called life. I became am aspiring  poet of life transformed into the Artist I am today and transpire to be, MaryJanesFreedom. A lover of life and love that aspires to make the world laugh through the stories I now can look back on and realize that I was meant for something bigger than what I dream of being. I am who I am. I am passionate. Everything happens for a reason.