Beginning again???? Again and again....who cares, right?

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This is only the beginning of the chronicles of Maryjanesfreedom. I began as a Poetoflife. Well I called myself the Poetoflife and would go down into dark basements and share the words that I would write onto the lined paper of notebooks that I used to write. Here I am. Now I am typing my words onto this visual of a white piece of paper. My laughter is what I am saying right now on the podcast that I had started. So here I am writing of what I am saying on a podcast. Trying to figure this out. So I thought I would type this book as I am listening to myself in the first person storytelling. I am listening to myself all over the place in storytelling and right now it’s a little explicit, so I made sure that anyone 18 years old and younger can’t listen to those episodes. Okay so the first 8 or 9 episodes are definitely not for ears that do not like cussing or sexual explicit expressions is what I call it. If you tune in to the newest episodes they begin in June of 2026.

I just found out in the podcast that Sinead O’Conner passed away, which was my bestie’s favorite Artist. Prince wrote the lyrics Nothing Compares To You. I  am I said plays on Youtube by the Jazz Singer. Now I am listening to one of my favorite songs by him,

”Love on the Rocks” https://youtu.be/UbvxP08FlMs?si=pjck3q-mGf0SUMWW

 Check out my older podcasts as I get ready to begin again, yet again....it is the drive that I need to cause it to take shape again a new world of creation that I am making my dream a reality.

The funny starts here

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Letting Go Of Ego

 "We see only what we are which is a result of our consciousness. There is no in between we either use it (our minds) or it shrivels. When we let go of ego only then can we expand our minds of consciousness. What path do we take to get there? The righteous path. The righteous path is the path one must take to achieve life goals. 

I have been down the wrong path before because I had no consciousness of truly right from wrong, only reaction to the ego. As I became aware, I had choices. I had choices because I became aware of my conscious of self and the consequences of what decisions I chose. We must learn from ourselves to make right choices and with good choices the future opens doors that were no doors, like a loop. Life was like a loop going nowhere in circle. Now, I have a choice, now I have a path, now I am conscious of the self within me that is egoless, it attaches to nothing. I am nothing but energy. Energy has no ego it just is. Is it that the I am the great source of power within?"

Casting Off The Old Skin

   We live through many selves. As we grow in this life we shed through the outer layers of our mind, heart and spirit. We learn about ourselves, our potential we reach in discoveries through knowledge. We are ready to shed again, to rediscover an inner sense of ourselves that we though were deep already. As we learn through the deep insights of our souls, we are ready to shed again. We desire to draw closer to the god-likeness within us. Our world be built around us changes as we grow and those, we surround ourselves by. We must die to our inner selves to transcend to a higher plane within our mind and deeper place in our soul. As we unfold each later of ourselves, we arrive. 

Breathe today in and focus on today, it is necessary for the growth of your soul.  Break free from your old self today of any thoughts that confine you. You are made anew. 

Simple Grandeur

Do not be discouraged if things aren't going well in your life. It will change. You have to want it. When you truly want things to be different you will make a change. So, if you are reading this and this is you only you can change it and read these simple words. I was once you, lost, hopeless, depressed and angry. Now, here I am.

It is simple to have understanding. That is when you have shed those layers and become spiritually enlightened by the very nature of God within our very being of living. When we can breathe God, we live close to his heart. I see it this way, I once walked in darkness. It was chaos. This is the nature of humans. We are really born human and then we shed the being and become spirit. We walk this earth in these vessels. When I came to the light, The Voice...that spoke to me and said to "give me your heart" I responded because I was given Grace. I leaped. I never looked back.

No matter where my journey has taken me this far in life through different states of living which is both physically and mentally, I followed. I obeyed. I kept my faith. NO matter when it seemed bleak. I held tight. Here I am able to share the goodness that came to me. It is simple but first you must follow. In the following does the falling in love happens. You see, through death I rose, in this realm and have been awake to the rebirth of my life. I am constantly evolving. We must break so that we can be put together through the Artist of Life....

2023.22.09 MJFONELOVE

Rootswise & Roots Sweetness: Strictly Female Reggae, Roots Reggae & Love...

 

                Live on what solely motivates you                 Every day is a NEW day...Arise 

 

                              ~MJF~

We need the darkness in our lives.

We need the darkness in our lives.

We are born into darkness until we find the light.

And, no it doesn't mean that you do bad things. People associate bad with darkness. It's just a place within us all. When you are shone the light, everything changes within you. You see the world in a different way. Hence the words:

“I once was lost, but now I am found, was blind, but now I see."

My freedom came to me in January of 2000. I used to walk literally in the darkness to work 5 miles away 5 days a week sometimes 6 or 7 days. I used to not want to live. I was very depressed, but, I made it to work all those years. I smiled through it all not one person knew my pain. I carried it. Until the night that Ms. Kimmie showed and a light shone down upon her. I was curious at to what I was seeing so I walked over to her station. I did not say but. "Who are you?" and she said to me as she smiled "He is listening to you?"

Mesmerized at what she said, I walked over to my station. My spirit knew the spirit she spoke of.....as I connected within me I felt a glorious feeling of grandeur and my life has not been the same since....meaning I LIVE.

Warrior Of Love

Sharing something deep to a heart that feels what I'm saying is a joy for me. My moments of heartbreak to the incredulous healing of being shattered. I heard, no, no...I literally felt my heart break into pieces. I cried out to the Unseen to take this pain away. I remember waking up from a deep sleep hours later to a Voice that was beckoning me "Daughter"..."Daughter"...the third "Daughter" I came to. The Voice said to me trust the Unseen. Walk in love. I was healed. The excruciating pain I could not bare was gone. This journey has been a quest, not an easy one. I followed. I obeyed. I trusted, Through it all, I remain faithful to the Unseen...

I live with the love that now fills me.

ONELOVE

Synchronicties

       Synchronicities

Here I am. Yep. Here I am.

It just seemed like yesterday.

Now, here we are today.

Here We are. Here We are.  

Do you remember yesterday?

It is the past. Today, we are. 

In sync. We are One. 

We are One. A whole being.

In one. Now, we live. 

2022.11.01

MJF_Onelove

 

In The Dark...

 

My heart aches deeply of a pain that can not be expressed enough with words, or shown with expressions because it's far to hurtful to share. Somehow this deep pain is what's kept me living. This ache gives me the will to move forward. Moving forward is how I've survived even when I didn't want to. There were many nights I've cried myself to sleep. I've often wandered aimlessly on on dark nights. I've even walked 5 miles one direction in the middle of the night to work, watching the phases of the moon for years. I would bellow into the lonely, quiet nights with the sound of my  own voice to keep me company. The darkness was my light. It was there I knew I could disappear and no one could find me because not one person dared to look. I would disappear on breaks and lunch all the years I worked the grave yard shifts and I would write. I began to write. Writing was my solace for the hell I was living in for so many years. Writing is how I would release the hurt inside without a soul to talk to because of the embarrassment I felt. So, I would write stories and poems of my so-called life. I became am aspiring  poet of life transformed into the Artist I am today and transpire to be, MaryJanesFreedom. A lover of life and love that aspires to make the world laugh through the stories I now can look back on and realize that I was meant for something bigger than what I dream of being. I am who I am. I am passionate. Everything happens for a reason. 

2021 Here we are back at it again

 Hello World!

It's me again finding my back to this Blogger site, boy have I lost my way. This post will probably bore you the reader but I wanted to express myself before I go any further. I can not believe 3 years has passed since I have done any kind of blogging besides Facebook, which is surely a different platform. This is where people that want to read can go to and find, search for something worth reading. I know right, with the millions of users and bloggers out there already, what makes me any different? I make myself different. We are all different, I get that. I want to make a difference in this world, at least with the time I have left on this earth, I want to be that difference. So, if you stumble upon this read , I hope you shall continue to look for my posts and be inspired, or be touched by anything that I blog about. I hope you the reader get to know me and follow my social media platforms. I am the one that wants to change the future. I  have a dream, a laugh out loud dream of being a comedienne, story teller , something in the light of the world to make people laugh. This is my gift and I hope that I am discovered.....

MJF_OneLove 

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San Diego's Women's Pro Football Team 2-0

San Diego Surge Women Football is something I only dreamed of as a little girl because I loved watching football and playing it. My daughter who is 28 is now playing for the team in San Diego. Sports has come along way for women. Especially for football. I remember when they even had arena football for women and when they ran around in lingerie. This though is the real deal and is not sexist. These women are hitting and making plays, and catching balls just like men. They are serious about their sport. I don't know if and when it will make it national where they are paid to be professionals, it seems far-fetched right now. Although anything is possible. I am proud my daughter is part of this program and dream that I can watch her fulfill of mine....28 years it took. Never say never....                                     

Ask and you shall receive

I can only believe

Unexpectedness

The most unexpected people that come into our lives and the most unexpected things that happen in life, make life worth living...

San Diego Football Network: San Diego Surge preps for final season

My daughter's first year playing Women's Pro Football. This is the first game of the season. Let's go San DIEGO!!!!





San Diego Football Network: San Diego Surge preps for final season: Quick Hits Location: Santee, CA Home Site:  Santana High School Team Colors: Navy, Surge Blue (Columbia), & White League...

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Had to share my performance on stage when I wanted to be a Poetic Rapper. I had a background of kids that were supposed to help me out. I see myself now and think wow I never gave up...lol at least I got up on stage and finished my set. Years later I discovered I wanted to be a comedian.

MaryJane's Freedom Standup Comedy Uptown Arts Bar

Here is a video of me years ago when I first started out, although I do not use cuss words anywhere. I had to learn how to be funny without using them to entertain all audiences. I drove fiver hours to my first invitation on stage that wasn't open mic. I have grown so much since then..

Awaken

It is human nature to love not hate, although hate is  a feeling we must engage with and experience. Hate has been taught, so where is the love? The love has to been found within the individual. When one has experienced the world that they live in and life has taught the lessons of human nature then love is the final answer. Love ignited will cause a burning flame...once the inner self find's it's true self and it's true nature...ONELOVE

                                              ~MJF~

Sea of Dreams

We are all given a path, down our paths we are given an open road of possibilities of hopes and dreams. We are the only one that can change the sails of life and we must let go to sail away to an open sea of dreams. The days get brighter and the colors seem livelier. We are painting our lives as we speak....

                                          ~~MJF~~

Splendor

I breathe you in. I breathe deeper. I breathe until I let it go all out of my breathe. I sink. I sink deeper. I sink into an abyss. I sink into an abyss of great grandeur. I am free. I am free falling. I am falling freer into a deeper side of me. You captivate me...

                                                             

                                                                                                    ~~MJF~~